Decisions

Everyday I'm faced with a new decision.
See my close friend doesn't believe in decisions. He believes that what's going to happen is basically already decided. That even though you will make, so called, 'decisions'. You won't. There is no decision. At the end of the day it's all atoms. It's just many different sequences, many different seemingly random arrangements. Pi. And those atoms are built up so specifically there's no room for you to make a choice, there's no such thing as free will. There's only specific atoms and their arrangements.

I actually disagree with him. I'm faced with so many decisions recently, I'm unsure where to turn. Relationships are muddled, plans are falling apart, life has be disrupted, routine has no meaning.

I guess I just realise now there is no point to any of this, I'm living for no reason other than to experience shit that doesn't matter anyway because you will fade away, your memories lost, others memories of you will fade and what does it matter!? Unless you're going to conquer something great, but still at the end of all that you will end up being forgotten as time goes on.