All my life I have felt really isolated from the people around me, in the way that I don't belong.
The people that surround me are people I'd prefer not surround myself with. But when I find someone like myself, because they are so much like me, we don't hold on to eachother and so it seems the isolation is our own faults.
I used to have this reoccurring dream where everyone around me is in a skeletal form, everyone is in a skeletal form except myself, I remain in my body with my own identity seeming apparent. However everyone else just looks the same. All just skeletons. I can't really remember the details of this dream just the main scenario. I never really looked much into it as I remember the dreams used to have rather humorous outcomes (I can't remember specifically) and so I thought there couldn't possibly be some sort of interesting interpretation!
But now that I think on the topic of isolation and never fitting in, these dreams confirm my feelings of loneliness, they are a perfect visualisation of how I felt, how I still sometimes feel.
Thinking back however, I think that maybe it symbolises the fact that nobody is their own person, nobody is different. Our identities are pointless if we're all the same. I never wanted to be the same as everyone. I always wanted to be different, not for the sake of attention or anything I think it was more a fear of becoming like everyone else. So it's not so much isolation of myself through not being able to fit in but more the fact that in order to fit in one must become the same as every skeleton, and lose your identity. Why is everyone so similar? Or at least why do they deny their identities to fit in to the social norm.
Idk.
Thinking a bit!
